I walked to my car, heading to Tel Aviv for some FroYo loving, and smiled to myself as I saw a young family walking towards their car after a day at the beach. The father and little son packing up the car while the mother and young daughter in matching short denim skirts danced to the music pouring from one of the restaurants.
I drove to Tel Aviv singing “Sin Wagon” at the top of my voice, imagining what Simon Cowell would say if I sang it to him and I giggled to myself as I imagined what I would say back to him in response, “Hey I just love singing this song!”
And so as I call an end to the dark time I have been in (thank you for your patience with me) I would like to end this post with some inspiration from dear friend and a list of things I have learned/ heard/ thought about during this time. (Thank you for your continued patience)
I’ve learned that no matter what he said, you said, they said, sometimes it just does not work out the way you thought it would
I’ve realised that I deserve better
I’ve thought a lot about the future and it is not as scary as I thought… ok still scary, but doable
I’ve heard that “guys have to eat a lot of shit before they realise the caviar they had”
I’ve learned that no matter how crazy you think you are being that there is someone who will tell you that they were so much worse!
I’ve realised that I am so lucky
I’ve thought about what it is I want and I am working on it
I’ve learned that beating ones self up is only self destructive and otherwise futile
I’ve realised again how blessed I am to have a family who are unconditionally there for me and friends who are like family
I’ve heard and learnt to “feel the fear and do it anyway”
I’ve had a good talk with myself and we are still friends
I’ve realised that I don’t want to be the kind of person who makes promises (to myself or others) that I cannot or won’t keep
I have realised that despite my depression/ nervous breakdown I am a pretty self aware and well grounded person
I have been told that I tell people too much about myself
I have realised that I don’t care!
Thanks for baring with me!
I’ll be back